Just trying to get my geek-side come back to life. I don’t know how I always ended up buying books but almost never touch it. I kinda struggling over some minor life matters that ‘they’ said you shouldn’t think too much about it but those stuffs keep turning back to my mind. I think that is why I like bookstores. I went there when I really had so many things in my mind and tired of thinking. It is not like I like to spend the whole day, drinkin coffee in their cafe while reading some books. I just like coming there, exploring some synopsis, and somehow buy some. I realized I lost my passion for reading since quite sometime. I can say since the past 4 years, I only read like 2-3 books I guess— textbooks and journals are exception. Well, but now I found a couple of books lying in my shelves and I pity them for not being read. So I picked one, and bring it along with me in my solo trip last week. The Perks of Being a Wallflower is my choice. I bought it about three months ago, in the submission day, after weeks dying over my deadlines. I hadn’t watch the movie, so I can say that I bought the book merely because of Emma Watson in there— since I used to be a Harry Potter hardcore fan. I just read the brief explanation about it but never open it at all, until last week. Right to be said, this is the first novel that I read after two years probably. Well, so yea I just finished reading it like 4 and half hours ago, and right after that I went straight to watch the movie. Because I insisted that not gonna watch it until I finish my reading. When I read the book I didn’t expect that it is a that kind of story. A teen with mental illness. I saw the trailer before, but it didn’t look like a story of a boy with struggling mind. In some point, I feel like I can relate with his situation. Questioning everything but never really do much about it. Just wondering about it, and sometimes just ended up with my own-made analysis. Okay skip that part, the thing is I kinda critical throughout the movie. The book is really well written, and I have my own picture in my head about the characters, the situation, the feel and everything. But during the movie, I found it disappointed at some point. Telling the truth I really like the casts, they’re great. I’ve been a fan of Logan and Emma since long time ago, and I am a new fan of Ezra. But, the story in the movie showed different feeling. The script didn’t described much about the characters, and the casts seem unable to get deep with their roles. It didn’t do the same with the book had told me. I was about to blame the stupid director but surprisingly, the director is the author himself. Well know I don’t know what to say. I just don’t understand what the author feels about the story. I think the book is really great, but lose it meaning after I watched the movie.
“Alice In Wonderland” (1915)
I can feel it slaps me right in the face.it hurts, ya it is. mad, yes I am.
At the end of the day, you create your own reality. Don’t expect anything from your “good” deeds. True generosity means giving freely without expectation of reimbursement because you already have everything you could ever ask for. Clinging to expectations creates suffering. Accept that “bad” things occasionally happen and learn to see them for what they truly are.
but you put the happy in my ness
you put the good times into my fun
and it’s so hard to do
and so easy to say
sometimes you just have to walk away
I should type 2000 more words for marketing right know, but yeah procrastination everywhere. so I think it will be better to store some moments in this electronic kind of journal instead of wandering around the kitchen.
well, I just scrolling in my ig feed when I found a picture from the movie New Year’s Eve. it gives me a thought about some moments from my night on New Year’s Eve in London. It was somehow indescribable.
we arrived too early in the Westminster bridge and looking for the best spot to see the fireworks. we kept seeing people with many kind of attributes with ‘happy new year’ on their head. most of them are looking weird but there is this gay couple who wear a cool silver and gold hat pairing with the ‘2013’ glasses on the same color. I asked them where I can get the same hat as theirs. turns out, they brought it from Chicago. It was not only us who has interest on their hat, in results, they keep lending their props to people and taking picture together. so were we! they really are such a friendly couple. seems like they travel a lot, they even been to Bali. and they flew thousand miles from US looking for the splendor of London’s fireworks will show.
we took a walk a few yards to take a closer picture of London eye. and there is this group of lassies that keep photobombing in our pictures. it was fine though. they were just having fun and too excited in welcoming the new year.
in the other side, we found a group of Syrians singing their national anthem song (I think) while waving their flag with ‘freedom’ written on it. it was already quite crowded. their noise began to attract people attention. some just smiled, some put on confused look, some enjoyed the show, and some also showed displeasure. what kinda amazed me that after a while, it looked like that some other Syrians (my another guess) appeared from any direction and surround the group. some of them joined the singing but some didn’t do anything just gave a support by being with them. what a scene.
as Big Ben pointed to 07.00 pm, the mass already filled up the bridge. it was such a long wait. we’re looking for something to be teased because we couldn’t move anywhere. I put some jokes on a couple I’ve seen around the crowd in Indonesian language, gave us hoots of laughter as I said ‘I hope none can understand our joke’. a second later, I heard a voice asking ‘dari mana?’ from the guy who was popped up out of nowhere. we were totally surprised to have this Indonesian guy overheard us from beginning. I felt shame but try to put a poker face and friendly introduced ourselves. apparently, he came to London for visit. his parents working for the embassy. and that time he was looking for his younger sister who lost in the crowd when he overhearing our conversation in Bahasa. so I don’t think he had heard the jokes in the first place haha. it was a short talk because later he asked for permission to look for his sister. the last time we saw him, he was swallowed up by the crowd while busy making a phone call.
We really couldn’t bear being in motionless mode for long hours. we kept joking around and evilly laughing. we were not that bad trust me. but I think our attitude caught the attention of people around us, till a middle aged man approached us and said that we were such a happy lassies. we just told him that we need that to killing the time. not long after that, I found and old man with a baby carrier on his back. he was standing right beside me, and I just couldn’t resist to not make a face for the baby. after some time, the family started sitting down and so were we. we looked like one big family sitting in the middle of the crowd and playing with Samuel—the baby,
while flirting with his older brother. am kidding but he is surely cute tho. the helicopter started buzzing around and the voice from the sky kept asking us to yell as the giant speakers began to play the music. people having a party and so do we. I looked at this family and admire their closeness of each other. there were time when the baby fell asleep and his brother gently take turns to took care of him from his mother. his father was so happy and kept dancing around. the mother just put a smile seeing his over excited husband.
I didn’t really pay attention for the family for some time because we enjoy the music and the euphoria around us. there was a moment when some guys in black jacket squeezing around and I felt a hand try to reach my pocket. fortunately, I was holding my phone and he caught my hand instead. before I could do anything that guy already disappeared and I warned others to be careful. later on, it wasn’t only me, my friend and people in front of us also experienced the same thing.
in the middle of party, there was this guy who pulled a trick to get a number of my friend. after a long subtle refusal, the guy gave up and introduced us to his brother family (next to him) and said that he would like to welcome us to their home if we are in London. actually they looked like a nice people, only this guy kinda annoying to my friend.
from our conversation to this guy, turns out there was another guy overheard us and wants to make a friend. he opened the conversation by introducing himself from Leeds. he came alone and wandered if he could join us. he also an overnight traveller but he took different bus. in short, he spent the rest of the event together with us.
it almost the time when I looked back to the Samuel and family. he already woke up and I tried to make a friendly conversation since I adore them. it was started with common topic. the father told me that they live in London, Samuel is 2 years old and the mother’s name is Vicky. a while later, he revealed why he was so happy that night. the mother was badly ill after giving birth to Samuel. he pointed out to the end of the bridge where there is St. Thomas Hospital located. as far as I noticed it was the hospital where Samuel was born and probably also where his wife got the treatment. It’s been 2 years since, and now the mother has healed. they came here to celebrating New Year’s Eve and also the mother’s recovery. I didn’t expect to hear this touching story. it was wonderful.
it was the highlight of the story before finally Big Ben rang the bell. it was fascinating, amazing, stunning moment. I was captivated in the unity of my surrounding. totally a moment of a lifetime.
it wasn’t that happy ending until our trip to home tho, but above all, I will never regret these memorable moment ♥
HAPPY NEW YEAR 2013!
I put this song as an opening of new chapter for this year. I don’t really satisfied with 2012, but there are some amazing moments did happen in that year. sad yet happy stories. well, what am gonna do right now is leaving all the bad things, and encouraging a new spirit to welcome any upcoming surprises life has prepared for me. keeping my fingers crossed for the new resolutions!
I wish for summer come faster